Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Tide

There is this moment in life that comes on occasion like a wondering comet. You may or may not notice its approach, you might only catch the glimpse of its tail. It's not always clear what it means but it certainly brings an incredible change. Things are never going to be the same.
It's a given.
You may miss it being engrossed in million other things life keeps throwing your way when all you really want is a year long vacation. This rush makes you deaf and blind to the world outside the immediate spec. And it's nothing worse than opportunity passing you by just because you didn't hear the knocking. Too tired to react in timely manner, too preoccupied with things that won't matter in a larger scheme but still require to be done.
There's an incredibly strange feeling that something is racking your world from inside, burrowing tunnels through your sleepy consciousness,  lighting the fire and starting another major reconstruction. You can be a willing participant or just an observer, or could simply let the tide carry you along. Choice is yours.
At times like these even navigating yourself is difficult. Something is happening every day, in unknown direction to the unclear purpose, without stopping by to explain.
Go with the flow is the only alternative that makes sense.
With the eyes clinging to the familiar images, noticing new isn't easy.
Scary shadowy figures don't mean much at times like this.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Shadows

You wake up in the middle of the night from a sudden jolt.
Struggling to recognize the surroundings and assess the danger you realize it's quiet and peaceful with deem lights and usual little noises of the night.
Until the new jolt. And the frightening truth is that it comes from within.
Something sinister is creeping quietly into your soul looking for shadows to hide. Like a cold snake sneaking away under the stone. The touch of a slippery cold being climbing in is incredibly real or it just seems so in a twilight of dream and reality. The feeling of invasion persists.
Trying to analyze it doesn't help, ignoring it doesn't work either.
All efforts are focused on identifying the intruder.
Meanwhile, probing cold and suspicion grip you even tighter with the edging premonition that escalates playing on your nerves and resurrecting unrecognized fears.
Suddenly you are fully aware of even stranger feeling of something from the past making its own way from the dark corners of previous existence.
Like something or someone is watching you from within violating your inner most private self.
Summoning all common sense, you try to look back at recent images, chaotically flipping mental pages, looking for any hint that might help understand what's happening.
The pressing need to escape this overwhelming sense of foreboding, the desire to run is almost impossible to resist.
The only glitch here is that there's nowhere to run from yourself.
Trickles of uncertainty are slowly moving towards the surface.
Taking cautious steps you try to follow the lead determined to have a glimpse of what's lurking in the shadows. Illusive to the eyes it sneaks away and continues to haunt, unapproachable and unexplained.
You can't find any meaning or connections. The only remaining choice is waiting it out. You cautiously close your eyes and prepare yourself for a long night, focusing every effort on one task...until complete exhaustion overwhelms you.

And then there's a sunshine bursting from the outside, sweeping away every dark spot on its way. Nothing can withstand the power of the light, not even darkest of moments that are trying to taint your existence

Essence

There is
no tomorrow
Everything
is happening
Now
With every minute
passing away
to never return
It's here
anything
and everything
that will ever be
It's all here
In a glass
On a palm
of the hand
Now
Time sliding
Everything else
Irrelevant
Life
Is happening
This very moment