You wake up in the middle of the night from a sudden jolt. Struggling to recognize the surroundings and assess the danger you realize it's quiet and peaceful with deem lights and usual little noises of the night. Until the new jolt. And the frightening truth is that it comes from within. Something sinister is creeping quietly into your soul looking for shadows to hide. Like a cold snake sneaking away under the stone. The touch of a slippery cold being climbing in is incredibly real or it just seems so in a twilight of dream and reality. The feeling of invasion persists. Trying to analyze it doesn't help, ignoring it doesn't work either. All efforts are focused on identifying the intruder. Meanwhile, probing cold and suspicion grip you even tighter with the edging premonition that escalates playing on your nerves and resurrecting unrecognized fears. Suddenly you are fully aware of even stranger feeling of something from the past making its own way from the dark corner...
Sometimes it's small and non-intrusive. It follows you around quietly without an argument. You hardly notice it exists. At times it's bigger and more pronounced. You see it when taking photos under the bright sun in short winter afternoons. It's stepping in in front of you to make a point. And then the time comes when it starts to hover above you where it's getting harder to ignore it. It covers your sky, just a small part at first, then slowly spreading like a big stain and taking away the sun and the sky, taking away warmth, light, color, playing with your mood and finally getting your full attention. It starts sipping through your pores, getting inside even deeper. You are suddenly very aware of the probing intruder searching for something with its alien fingers. The cold is invading you like a doubt, occupying your waking thoughts, not allowing to forget its presence even for a minute... till the next sunny day that is suddenly here washing away all the dark ...
Beauty is illusive. Sometimes you need to look for it using all your powers of observation. At times it is unexpectedly striking and edgy, taking your breath away, almost painful to look at. It's baffling and surprisingly disturbing, leaving long traces of contradicting emotions on its wake. O n other days it's simple, soft and mellow like an afternoon light on a shortest winter day reassuring you of spring coming eventually and giving you patience to trust and wait. Like pages from an old letter of a dear friend you haven't seen in years, cosy and comforting in its permanent presence. One thing is certain - it's out there, obvious to the eye or hiding in shadows. Looking for it is always a discovery of something new that escapes superficial glances. The inner light it gives to all shapes and colors of all things that surround us. It's like finding something to warm your heart in the darkest of moments, something to hold on to, like a l...
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